Long around last Friday or Saturday I told myself that I belonged here today, tomorrow and the day after. Re-upping that every day seemed like a good idea. Then the next morning as I repeated this to myself my mind jumped to a much better idea--I belong here this year, next year and the year after.
Fun weekend with Scott here. Saturday late morning we were off to Deb and Jim's to deliver a chop saw and see their grandkids in their halloween costumes, Frozen, a dragon and a spider. The score of the morning was bunny ears for Nancy. Scott decided to borrow them as we went for a walk around a nearby lake. One woman told him to watch out for the dogs who might start chasing him, almost everyone smiled at him. Bought a new recumbent bike to have in the family room so that I can ride for a few minutes when that is all I can handle. I have a treadmill downstairs but close and convenient seemed to offer an good alternative option.Scott and I got into some family history boxes--pictures, birth certificates, high school diplomas,wedding albums from my parents and, fun notes to and from our father as a baby and young boy. I have another drawer full to go through the next he is in town. I sent a few things to my cousin Wendy so she could put them on Ancestry.com. That seems like a good place to keep these treasures. Wendy has also been my greatest cheer leader. She is in her own cancer journey and has sent me lots of interesting books and resources.
Sunday we attacked the leaves around the pool. All the of us had our tools, Sue the big broom, Scott the blower and Nancy the pool rake to pull the leaves off the pool cover. We made pretty quick work of that project and Scott and Nancy tightened all the lines on the pool cover to make it tighter for the winter. Another walk followed, this one around home so it came with hills--We had a good pace going so got a good workout. Got home to find Kim (Sue's cousin) and Lin (her partner) here with homemade beef barley soup and some bread and desserts. Hmmm good. Nice visit with a few laughs.
The rest of the day was devoted to football--Seahawks who won and the Packers who unfortunately lost. We all gave up on the Packer game and Scott and I watched the World Series for a while. Went to sleep with the Mets winning and woke up with the Kansas City Royals the champs. Some of you saw our mouse adventure on Facebook. There was a dead mouse downstairs but Nancy couldn't find it--it ran off with a trap. Scott went on the hunt and was successful so he and Nancy went down to retrieve it armed with paper towels and an ice chopper. Found two and the trap so all is good. Unfortunately it is the time of year for them to come inside looking for a warm cozy home to live in.We spent a lot of the weekend thinking about the clinical trial and weighing quality of life issues with possibly more side effects. Scott and I routed through more material this morning and I am more at peace with it as a possibility. I will decide this afternoon at the docs. I sent a list of questions to discuss at my appt this morning. His office called to see if I could come in later when he could spend more time with us. Somewhere in the mid morning my stress level went up as the impending decision and reality of the next stage of the journey is now closer to beginning. Calmed down enough to have good conversations with the doc and go through the list of questions. In the end I will be doing the clinical trial. It is a double blind study, everyone gets standard treatment and some get an extra drug, others placebo. No particular downside except giving myself shots everyday. The doc kept telling me that the anticipation is worse then the reality. Here's hoping. He continued to say that I look good and have relatively no symptoms so that is a good starting place for Wednesday when chemo and the trial start. I am good with the decision and feeling positive about what is to come.
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